Mom N Me Monday...A Reflection

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I really wanted to participate in "Mom n Me Monday" last week after I had left our ultrasound, however between moving and the rest of the day's activities, I just wasn't able to get it together. So, here I am ready to post what I wanted to last week after all the emotion of my ultrasound with my babygirl! ♥

Laying on the table watching my daughter...my daughter...letting that sink in for a few minutes...in the ultrasound last Monday, I soaked in EVERY moment. Her movements of her hands, how much I loved just watching her heart beating, her stretching her legs, lifting her head up, just wiggling around --clearly showing life inside me, seemingly just for her to ensure I know she's ok.

Rewind about 10 years to my 1st baby...can I still call him my baby? Yeah, I can and I do. Just not in front of his friends. :)  Here he is, the 1st moment I saw him...9 weeks. I remember my MIL (a nurse) saying "Oh, Stephanie, I have never seen an ultrasound this early that looks so clearly like a baby and not a blob." I was instantly in love.

So, as I'm in my ultrasound with my babygirl, I am taken back to my ultrasound with my babyboy --flooded with emotions of how much I love them both. I am so very blessed to be their mother.

November 27, 1999 ♥

I think that's all I did for hours...just stare at him.

I still don't have my desktop setup from our move, so I don't have new pictures of us together on my laptop to add to this post, but I will!  Although, obviously I am in total baby mode, so I'm very reflective of A when he was a baby too and my pregnancy with him. It's been fun for him to learn too.

He asks me a lot of questions about when he was a baby to make this baby I'm pregnant with, connected for him. I love it! I recently watched a video of him when he was about 2 1/2 and I fell in love with my son at 2 all over again...his language, tone of voice, his actions. He used to say about everything..."It's perfect, Mommy!"

I cried watching it. And I cried again watching my ultrasound dvd of my daughter this week too.

He'll never know that when I looked at him, all I kept thinking was "He's perfect."

Happy Monday!

Get out your camera and get into pictures with your kids! ♥

Being a mom, makes EVERYTHING worth it. 

Mom 'n Me Monday

I've been reading a lot of pregnancy and mom blogs lately, thinking about my pregnancy, my miscarriage and my pregnancy 10 years ago a lot. The significant moments during each of those...

I came across one blog in particular that started a Monday bloghop about pictures of moms with their kids. Her post was very short and and the best kind of simple ~it was so moving that it brought me to tears...
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It made me think about the moment I found out A was a boy during my pregnancy 10 years ago. I knew with everything in me that he was a boy from just about the beginning on. I was so happy to be having a son! I was even more in love with him from that moment on...

His dad and I divorced when he was 2 1/2 and until 3 years ago, it was just the two of us. We went through a lot together, just the two of us, and we have always been very close.

As I was thinking about his life from the moment I found out he was a boy on and how excited he is to now have a baby sister, I started mentally flipping through my photographs of he and I...

In anticipation of his sister's arrival, he asks a lot of questions about when he was a baby. :) He is really excited --he's already given his baby sister a nickname, he hugs my belly each morning and tells her "good morning", was so sweet when he said a few weeks ago "I think this one's gonna stick, Mom" (referring to our miscarriage last summer) and is just genuinely a caring big brother. I love him more than he will ever know and I decided to pick a couple pictures from further past moments that I loved for the "Mom 'n Me Monday".

In October 2004, after A and I had moved back to AZ from Tennessee the previous year, we headed to Nashville to attend one of my best friend's wedding. She was and is such an important part of both of our lives and has been since A was 11 weeks old.
At her reception, my almost 5 year old son asked me to dance with him... He wasn't quite sure what to do, but he had melted my heart with it... This was a picture taken during the 1st time my son asked me to dance...

In December 2005, I had completed my Bachelor's of Arts in Education at Arizona State University. This was the culmination of beginning college in 1990, a single 17 year old kid who left school a couple years later for a billion reasons, but it was to be my life's path. After my divorce, I returned a 30 year old single mother, determined to live a happy and hopeful life for myself and my son. A and I both went through my return to college and when graduation came, I couldn't have been more honored to have shared it with my son!

I actually am really good about taking pictures and also including myself in them...that started after my dad died when I was 22, so my family just knows, the camera goes everywhere and everyday life is captured in photos...

I am looking forward to many more pictures together with my son and many pictures with my daughter...for now, her pictures with me are just of my belly. :)