"Sitting on the plane, preparing to take off to Pittsburgh...the place I was born and where I'm returning to find my heart...
How strange life is that essentially I've come full circle in my life so far.
As I was getting ready this morning, thoughts of the last 2 1/2 months have flooded my mind--how quickly time has passed and how strong my feelings have grown to be. Almost surreal. I said to my friend this morning, "I feel like my life is a movie. Only the best part is--it's real!" ...the progression of our communicating to falling in love to today --the moment when we meet in person and everything comes together to prepare for our future together.
I woke before my alarm had gone off and laid in bed thinking about G and all of the pieces that make up him...I love learning about him and love him more and more everyday. He so completely "gets" me and accepts me --just as I am. The moments that I worry the most about when he WON'T want me are the moments he probably loves me MORE because he's the only one who gets to see it.
I have feelings right now of complete overwhelming love and amazing emotion. I can't wait to see him and finally be able to put my arms around him and be able to actually say the words, "I love you."
This morning he left a comment on my myspace saying finally the moment was here. I went on to get ready and make sure I was packed up. I went back to the computer right before I was leaving for the airport to leave him a comment... I clicked on his page and the song playing was Clay Walker's "I'd Love to be Your Last". I was so touched, of course, I started sobbing...I couldn't even think of what I wanted to say so I decided I would send something from my blackberry at the airport.
I recognize how HUGE him putting that on there was --anyone going to his page KNOWS it's not his kind of music and he's proclaiming publicly a lot of feeling. I love it! I love the song, I love the gesture and I so love him! I ended up sending, "I'm sitting on a plane to come see you...Yay! You are my last..."
June 17, 2007