June 17, 2007...3 years ago

"Sitting on the plane, preparing to take off to Pittsburgh...the place I was born and where I'm returning to find my heart...

How strange life is that essentially I've come full circle in my life so far.

As I was getting ready this morning, thoughts of the last 2 1/2 months have flooded my mind--how quickly time has passed and how strong my feelings have grown to be.  Almost surreal.  I said to my friend this morning, "I feel like my life is a movie. Only the best part is--it's real!"  ...the progression of our communicating to falling in love to today --the moment when we meet in person and everything comes together to prepare for our future together.

I woke before my alarm had gone off and laid in bed thinking about G and all of the pieces that make up him...I love learning about him and love him more and more everyday.  He so completely "gets" me and accepts me --just as I am.  The moments that I worry the most about when he WON'T want me are the moments he probably loves me MORE because he's the only one who gets to see it.

I have feelings right now of complete overwhelming love and amazing emotion.  I can't wait to see him and finally be able to put my arms around him and be able to actually say the words, "I love you."

This morning he left a comment on my myspace saying finally the moment was here.  I went on to get ready and make sure I was packed up.  I went back to the computer right before I was leaving for the airport to leave him a comment... I clicked on his page and the song playing was Clay Walker's "I'd Love to be Your Last".  I was so touched, of course, I started sobbing...I couldn't even think of what I wanted to say so I decided I would send something from my blackberry at the airport. 

I recognize how HUGE him putting that on there was --anyone going to his page KNOWS it's not his kind of music and he's proclaiming publicly a lot of feeling.  I love it!  I love the song, I love the gesture and I so love him!  I ended up sending, "I'm sitting on a plane to come see you...Yay! You are my last..."

June 17, 2007